Mary

thinking about something?

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 04:56:50 GMT

I went to a wedding over the weekend with my boyfriend. It was a very untraditional wedding filled with words like awesome and totally cool. The man that wed the two lovers was tall, skinny, young, and fairly emo looking. The tables were decorated with vinyl records and custom made jones soda. The wedding cake was topped with two dinosaurs dressed in wedding gear and the music was far from elegant. But my favorite part of the wedding was when the new married couple took their first dance. I looked around the room during that moment and watched the faces of the staring crowd. I could read each face as they reacted to scene before them. Everyone was thinking about someone. There were those thinking about past loves maybe even lost loves. Then there were those thinking about their current loved ones. And then maybe those thinking about future loves or the hope for a future love. Even the "boy" band sitting next to me were thinking about someone. It was wonderful.

And romantic.

cheer up buttercup

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 06:04:57 GMT

I'm having a hard time understanding things. I don't understand what to do about works. Yes I said workS plural. Also I am having a hard time understanding people, especially those closest to me. Things are making less and less sense all the time. I'm also tired of being sick all the time. And doctors need to stop guessing at everything.

-lonely and sleepless in seattle

Who's calling me old?

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 16:35:30 GMT

When does someone officially become old? Is there a specific age someone can be subjected to the old label. Yes there are senior citizens but when can I call myself old. I sure feel old. I am old enough to skip out on any status offenses. I currently have to make sure my roommates don't drink in the apartment because I am held responsible if they do. I have been seeing numerous doctors who continue to tell me, "you're just getting older, deal with it, eat more fiber, take more pills, stop being a teenager, take care of yourself." So I'm old now, right? Last night one of the new kids at the LEGO store asked me what responsibilities come with being a manager and how did I get there. He sounded intrigued, almost anxious. I was once that person, that person who wanted to move up in the world, be someone, someone important. Now I'm there and I would like to ask the youngster about his fun exciting life as a teen. But then again, my teen years sucked. At the end of the day I am really not that old. I am only 21. If I live to be a hundred I am not even a quarter through my life. (I better not live to be 100) Besides, you know who is old? My boyfriend. He is old. Thats all I have to think about to make myself feel better. He's old and I am his hot young girlfriend. The end.

well

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 18:04:59 GMT

There is something wonderful about coming home to the smell of fresh cookies.
Unfortunately its raining now.
I only have three more things to do for school (two finals and a take home quiz).
I am a terrible friend.
Hawaii is no longer a possibility.
Everyone is leaving me next week.
Where the hell is Diva. I miss her like I don't even know.
Off to school, in the rain.

leaving on a jet plane

Sun, 25 May 2008 22:25:40 GMT

Its coming to an end and i hate it. Diana and Anna are leaving me for the summer and today is the first time it really hit me because they are decorating for our last party. I never really hang out or even really show up at the parties, but I am going to miss them for the summer. I don't want them to go, not only because I'm gonna have to hang out with strangers for the summer, but because I honestly love them....

xoxo

Sun, 25 May 2008 05:32:11 GMT

I miss you. I really really miss you.

Sunless

Sat, 10 May 2008 00:42:43 GMT

So its sunny outside. I'm inside. Its pretty dumb. I'd go for a walk but I would end up at a store where I would end up spending money. I would go to a park or to campus to read outside but I currently have nothing to read. I'm out of ideas. Goodnight sun. We'll hang out another day.

Cool

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 17:45:20 GMT

Things are going well, other than my health. I think my apt will be taken by the end of the week so I don't have to stress about it. Relay for Life is this weekend. Not having to work on the weekends for the past two weeks has been so nice. School is more manageable. The weather, although inconsistent is starting to look much nicer. I love walking to school in the sun. I love that I don't have class till noon everyday. Things are great with my B. I thought things would change when the friend moved up here but I will admit, I was wrong. He is so good to me. My Kelsie is home. I am so excited to hang out with my crazy Kelsie. If I can get my health together and figure out roommate stuff for the summer, I will be perfectly content with life.

xoxo

really honestly truly

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 21:24:28 GMT

today is one of those days where times just creeps by because I have nothing to do. nothing. everyone is busy. soren is working till 4 and then he will probably have to entertain his new guests. diana is studying with friends for exams. anna is no where to be found, which is a usual thing on the weekends. jess is cleaning and taking care of her kitty. no underwear shopping. my family is at church. josh went home. diva is still in olympia. i have no one else. i have cleaned the apt already. i am tired of watching tv and movies. now i'm just in bed. doing nothing. wishing i was. a headache will form soon. i'll fall asleep and dream about doing something.

also, i reallly reallllly realllllly need to find one more roommate for the summer. i'm starting to panic.

also, i reallly reallllly realllllly need to buy my bf pillows or i will have a panic attack.

also, i feel the headache coming.

goodnap

-mary

Also

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 23:30:02 GMT

Well, I renewed my lease through to August 31st. So now I just need to confirm two roommates. Also, preparing myself for jealousy, its coming. Also, I like new friends. Also, I forgot Pon's B-day, I feel TERRIBLE! Also, I walked home in the rain and thunder, I was soaked. Also, I have to go to work now, boo. Also, I miss being healthy. Also, nothing...

I need a stress ball

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 18:01:33 GMT

I am stressed. Help. I don't know how to fix it.
1st: I have to work today 12-8p, the worst shift ever.
2nd: I have to write a ten page paper and 3 one page papers all due on Monday.
3rd: I have to revise 3 papers due next friday (I hate revising)
4th: I always feel like shit and the doctors won't help me.
5th: I don't want to go to CT this summer but everyone is pushing me to do so.
6th: I have no money even after a 31 cent raise (which I am also sad about since I want WAY more money)...
7th: I had a bad dream last night.
8th: I can't buy gas anymore
9th: Nothing is de-stressing me
10th: I haven't seen Diva since the dawn of time
11th: I am worried about my living situation after the summer (Anna and DIana, I hope you will still have me. I don't wanna live at home)
12th: I have nothing to eat.

Help. I need somebody. Help
Fix me.

xoxo

/Slash/

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 21:27:57 GMT

I'm sick of slash use to being sick. I'm realizing how lonely slash important summer will be. I hate slash love being the teacher's pet in my English class. I have to slash want to get my tonsils out. I need to slash am excited to read my Berenstain Bear books. I want to slash get to sleep in on Thursday. I miss slash really miss my kitty lately. Dexter is my new favorite slash love. Killing those bad guys is gross slash awesome. I am going to take a nap slash go to work and hopefully slash better get to see my boyfriend tonight slash soon.

xoxo Mary slash Marilyn

Vroom Vroom

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 00:12:33 GMT

Roaring engines. Enormous wheels. Fire flame prints. Thunderous crowds. Hopeless cars. And lots of dirt. What am I doing this Saturday? I’m going to Monster Jam. Yah that’s right. Monster Trucks. Jealous much? You should be.

On other notes, this quarter is starting off better than my last. Work is not as aggravating as it was during the holidays. I am in love with Twin Peaks. My boyfriend is pretty damn wonderful. I’m not sick anymore, which hopefully means my doctor won’t have to do any stupid procedures to me. I am cutting back on sugar. I found Labyrinth and now I can play it all the time. My roommates made a chocolate cake and it was good. There isn’t school on Monday. The Lego dinner is this week. And life is currently going well.

I love you.

xoxo

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 22:05:24 GMT

Well, the season is nearing the end. Just a few more weeks and work will be back to normal. I'm pretty excited. I hate seeing the store a complete DISASTER. Its stressful. Not only do I have to deal with that but I also have to deal with Neil and Gordon. I'm still trying to wrap my brain around the incident the other day with Gordon. He is evil. But he is all alone now. No one likes him. Not even Gina. Hallelujah, finally. And crying at works sucks. I'll tell you that for sure. Everyone knows you've been crying. I looked dumb. What a baby.

Anyway, hopefully an internship in CT will go through. I really want to go. And I really hope Soren can go. It would be way more fun to have someone with me, especially him. I would hate to have to live out there for several months all by my lonesome self.

I spent lots on christmas.

I got a bonus to make up for it though.

I love gingerbread.

I can't find a GOOD gingerbread man cookie cutter anywhere.

This is the first time that I have been at my apartment for more than an hour in probably a week or two.

I always have a hard time this year with secrets. I want to tell everyone what I got them for christmas or where I ran into friends and families buying presents for them or yada yada yada. Its hard, really.

Court TV

-mary

what to do

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 01:55:38 GMT

What a lazy day today is. I want to do something to make this day a little less lazy...

cha cha cha changes

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 19:53:06 GMT

I'm sitting in Kane Hall at the University of Washington. I am a member, student, husky here for the next few years. How did I get here? When did I decide school was important? When did I choose to climb to the top of my educational ladder? I have no idea, but I am pretty glad I did. Sitting in a class of 400+ students is a bizarre and fullfilling feeling. Swarms of students flood into the class to sit down for an hour and listen to a tiny professor way in the front row. And we are all racing to a similar yet quite unique goal.

And then, tomorrow I am turing 21. When did I get so old? 21? Really? I am semi excited I guess. No more, can I do this, can I do that? I can do it all baby! No more limits. Will I become an alcoholic? No, I haven't had much fun with alcohol so far.

Too bad Josh and Diva won't be around. Losers.

Well, 21, attending the University, living on my own, dating, and I taking care of my own problems, like a big girl. Life is pretty different.

Have a nice day

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 06:19:14 GMT

Much has happened. When I think about life three or four months ago, and I think about life now, I am dumb founded. I am happier. I have never been this happy. Its a weird feeling. Always feeling happy. Its a good feeling. I am more than perfectly content.

I went to Hawaii with the family. I am leaving for CT with Soren soon. I love living in Seattle. I love being able to do what I want when I want, even if its watching boys have a stupid popsicle eating contest. I still hate work, but I try to think about all the wonderful stuff instead. And it helps. My hair is short. I may look older, but it feels better. And I can get ready faster than Superman. I feel good about myself. I have more confidence in everything.

Everything's good. Lets keep it that way.

Sweet.

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 07:17:57 GMT

I was driving to work. Singing along to my music. Enjoying the scenery. I was fine. Until. I looked at my dashboard. No gas you ask? No, plenty. Engine light on you ask? No, running fine. Worse.

There was a spider.

It was ugly too. And I started screaming. I was already going to be a few mins latte to work (that was a typo but it was so funny i left it). So yes, late to work. Couldn't stop. Had to keep going. I'm screaming. Swerving in and out of lanes. Stopping last second at red lights. Not moving at green lights. Other cars not understanding. The spider starts moving. I wanted to cry. It starts crawling down a web towards my feet. I let go of the gas to move my foot. Cars are mad that I am slowing down. I'm still swerving every which way. Where is a boy when you need one. In the San Juans. Thats where. Cars honking. Spider moving. Me screaming. It landed on the floor and. BAM. Its life was over. My foot killed it. I am stamping my feet up and down frantically. Ha. I win.

Then I drove to work.

Pawwwsative

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 03:32:07 GMT

In light of recent events, I will try to be more positive. I have been a little negative in the last few posts.

Puppy's and RainBows.

Hugs, Kisses, and You

Endless amounts of new music.

Fans during these hot days.

Amazingly orgasmic ice cream cake.

Seeing my Diva and my Josh after who knows how long.

Excited for Porn movie night. Jealous?

Once you go Mac, you most definitely don't go back.

I Love You's

Kitttttty, I'm coming over to stroke your soft grey fur.

I'm leavin' on a jet plane. CT!!

Cleanliness.

You smell so good.

New clothes, paid out of another's pocket.

I'm seeing my Gina tomorrow!

Smiles and Laughs

Sleeping. for a long time. especially when you're sleepy.

You.

- xoxo

talk to me

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 18:48:14 GMT

How do you say things you want or need to say but you can't say because if you say it the said will said and the sayer will be lost?

I have plenty of things to say. I have decided I am a talker. I talk a lot. Which is still weird to me, given my past personality. I use to be extremely shy. I got my first job at LEGO and now I can't shut my mouth. And I'm not very good at speaking either. I fumble with my words and forget what I am talking about. "Goooo on." Sometimes I will just talk without knowing I'm talking. My mouth will say things that my brain is not.

Jon hated me because I talked to much. "Mary, you talk to much."

My mother corrects everything I say, all the time. "Mary, there isn't an S at the end of anyway."

Soren mocks me. "Mary, you've never had chai tea? How about a banana? A BANANA, Mary!"

My brother stops paying attention. "Mmmm hmm. Sure. Uh huh. Yeah. Ok"

My friends have a hard time understanding me. "Mary, I'm confused. Start over, if you must."

I'm a chatty kathy. Who would of thunk?

So, I'm bored. Anyone wanna hang out?

Do you realize?

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 01:50:02 GMT

I feel like writing. I don't know why. I don't know what to write about. I don't know why I have been so tired. I have always worked a lot so I don't understand why I come home and just pass out and die every day, lately.

My friend Rachel is getting married. She is younger than me. I don't know what to do with that.

I wanted to go to Portland with my brother today. But I forgot all about it. I don't know why. (Wait, yes I do)

My phone hasn't been giving me my messages. I don't know why.

I have been saying yes too much. I don't know how to say no to people. It's a problem. I don't know how to fix that.

I miss steve. I know why.

I am usually shy and awkward when I don't want to be. Why? I don't know.

I wish I had more confidence. You have been helping with that though. Thanks. I like feeling better about myself. Its like you know.

I wish things were this clean all the time. I know why things aren't.

I don't know why I find it funny.

Why do I allow myself to eat Oatmeal Creme Pies?

Do I complain too much?

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 18:22:33 GMT

I have to go to work today. I don't want to. I am really really tired of work. I remember when I use to brag that I worked at LEGO. Don't get me wrong, I love LEGO, I just don't wanna work there. But whats new, eh? I bet if you go back and read my old entries, 50% are me complaining about LEGO.

The worst thing about it right now is my manager is currently on medical leave. I surprisingly miss her. I'm tired of currently hearing, "Well, I'm manger on duty till Gina comes back..."

He makes me ill. And it is always a mess in the back room. I swear, every time I fix it, he ruins it just to annoy me. And every little thing is getting to me. I am so sick of his recycle "bin." Its a dumb cardboard box that is currently over flowing. Paper is everywhere. He stays at the store till 8 or 9 when he is supposed to leave at 4 or 5. He talks all the time, and wonders why he is behind on work. He is just no fun. And now he is going on about the seaplanes.

"Who is going to be on my plane? I am the manager on duty, so I am gonna pick who is on my plane."

I really don't wanna be on his plane. I wanna be on Soren's plane and on Dani's plane. But he likes Soren and Dani. I'm in a bit of a rut. But then again I don't want to get on a seaplane in the first place. Who decided that this would be fun? It sure wasn't me.

I'm not excited for the Batman event either.

I hate bridge traffic.

I hate that my internet doesn't like my MacBook yet.

I hate that my curtains fell over.

I hate that everything is messy.

I hate that I'm not spontaneous.

I hate.

But boy do I like cookies.

Once you go mac, you can't go back...

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 19:24:16 GMT

I'm currently on my MacBook. Jealous much? Yeah, its sweet. Forking over a bundle of money wasnt fun, but I did get a good deal. I also skipped out on paying tax. I liked that part. Thanks Thomas.

So I am now completely obsessed with my MacBook. I have been on it till 2 in the morning every night and then I wake up and get right back on it. I know the initial high will dwindle, but only a little. This thing is so sweet. The amount of wonderful things it can do it countless. I am in love.

In other news, no, there isn't other news. Just sweet Mac news.

With love and care,
Mary

Livejournal: Posting

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 07:59:21 GMT

Macbook: In Progress.

Apt Room: Coming together (Thank you handy man).

Job: Still sucking me in. Or just sucking.

Maui: August 2007.

Enfield CT: Sooooooo happening.

Heat: Killer

Life style: Completely different.

Liking it? Hell yes.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 02:22:44 GMT

I'm in my new apt and have been for a week. Its weird, cool, fun, strange, boring, exciting, liberating, and fantastic all at the same time. I don't know how to explain it. I love it and hate it at the same time. There are things I miss about my old home. There are things I hate about my new apt. But all in all I am pleased with the situation. My biggest complaint is the boyfriends. Diana and Anna have boyfriends who spend most of their time HERE. Its kinda annoying. I like them, don't get me wrong but jeez, I didn't know I was getting an apt with Diana, Anna, AND the two boyfriends. Bah humbug. Last night I put Star Wars in. Diana and her boy (I won't attempt to spell his name), sat on one couch while they played with MY Lego. And Anna and Jack snuggled up on the couch next to me. And I sat there trying to listen to the movie over the sounds of Lego and Anna smooching Jack...

Well, I'm hungry. Maybe I will walk over to Jimmy Johns and get a sandwich, BY MYSELF, because Diana is in her room with her boy , and Anna is somewhere with Jack.

xoxo